By Steph Fink
Beating the crowing rooster (yeah, like that happens in a
Washington, D.C suburbia, but you catch my drift…it was early!), this
30-something was warming up her drowsy body as my then five year old, Jake,
sleepily wandered in and plopped his groggy body on the guest room bed.
His inquisitive eyes were inspecting the spectacle in front
of him. As I warmed my legs up in the routine hamster on the wheel circular
motion, I twisted my center core to stretch my arms and stomach muscles. With utter amazement, Jake spouted out,
“How’d you do that Momma? Can you do apple jacks (aka: jumping jacks) on the
We just covered the whole simultaneous pat your head while
rubbing your belly phenomenon the week prior, that’s why my physical
contortions appeared impressive and I’ll take the “drops of props” wherever
this Jersey girl can get them! I graciously thanked Jake and continued my
“No babe, I’m not going to do jumping jacks on the
elliptical, it’s just not possible for Mommy to do that safely." Jake looked a little disappointed but
took it in. My mind quickly drifted in the normal stream of consciousness that
makes my husbands’ face go “tilt” when I verbalize my endless thoughts to him!
Five years ago, I thought where I am standing today was
impossible. I did not think I
could return to my wedding weight.
I reflected to my vast past of “impossible” statements that sounded
persuasively believable and weighed them against the truth:
“I’ll never be able to get back to my wedding weight because after my
thyroid surgery, I have thyroid problems and my metabolism is screwed up.”
Not only am I at my wedding weight, I’m working with my (rather dormant)
metabolism and my doctor’s monitoring my thyroid levels.
“It’s impossible to have a regular exercise schedule because my life is
just too busy, I’ll just suffer and try to eat less.”
Possible TRUTH: I have time for the things that I deem
important. I didn’t formerly deem
exercise important enough to schedule it.
Movement equals exercise. I
take a walk around the block with my kids. I am exercising while connecting with my kids, hubby, walking
partner or God. I do and will eat
less because I am listening to my body and understand the difference between
emotional and physical hunger.
“I’m never going to get to my goal weight, it’s taking soooooooooo long,
and so it’s just an unreasonable goal.
I’m just gonna be content with where I’m at.”
I am content with where I am at and at the same time I know in my spirit
I am not where God wants me to be.
I will continue to press on because with God on my side, I will get
there. (P.S. – Seven pounds to go
to goal weight!)
I wondered where my disconnect was between the lie and
truth? The answer - my faith deficiency in the true source, God. I had faith in “me” (my strength, my
abilities) and that is why I failed and back slid. When I have faith in God to do a work in me, I have
experienced sweet, slow and deliberate success. The center has to be God!
I am encouraged to read in Matthew 17:20-21, "Because
you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a
mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it
will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." (New International
The bottom line is that I didn’t believe God could move this
formerly obese “mountain”. He has
changed me. You know what - He
can, He did and He will continue to do so because He who is faithful to do a
good work in me will be faithful to complete it. It’s all about Him, not
God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever
imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing
us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.
Ephesians 3:20-21 (Message)
My doing an “apple jack” on the elliptical does seems
impossible. If the Lord wants me
to do it, I have faith I will (I promise I’ll let ya know!) Retuning to my wedding weight seemed
impossible. I’m sure there were
some people that thought parting a large Red Sea down the middle seemed pretty
What’s an “impossible” that you’re face with right now? Can you find the “possible” statement
to match it?
writing has appeared in Proverbs 31 Ministry, P31 Woman magazine. In
her free time she can be found encouraging numerous MOPS group in the
northern Virginia area on the "Colorful Art of Friendship - Allowing
God to Paint the Masterpieces" and MOPS leaders on "Being a Bright
Steph can be found blogging at www.encouragedinheart.org
or on Facebook at Stephanie Fink or on her Facebook page Encouraged in Heart
- Stephanie Fink. She loves big hair, big cups of coffee and big bear hugs.